What Hurts...

Maybe what hurts is that I die a little more every day.
And every day nothing changes.

You don't change.
I don't change.
We with the world stay the same.

Like my lifeless body lies there as the world keeps spinning.

And you, just pass by, smiling at me,
not knowing the pain I have inside.



-Kathy C.

Words

Nothing anyone felt can be described with anything at all.
Words are created to try to explain the unimaginable feelings we have, the feelings we can touch with our hearts.
The word feel doesn't truly describe the state of feeling.
The word happy completely lessens the way I felt when you lied about loving me.
The word love is absolutely inaccurate.
Words, come close, but just isn't it.
Silence, is when you are most deep in emotion, it brings together so much more than words can say.
What do I feel for you?
*Silence*



-Kathy C.

Everything We Had

Everything we had is no longer there.

It didn't mean anything to you, but it meant everything to me.

If I didn't fall for you, I wouldn't be where I am.
I wouldn't have these messed up thoughts.
You taught me how it felt to be happy,
then showed me how all of it could be ripped from me so quickly.

What am I to believe now?
That someone else will come around?
You dropped me so low I'm not sure anyone can pick me back up.

You asked were they any good for me.
No, they came around to smash up the pieces.

Now all I want is to put an end to this life.
I guess its nice to know we had something.
But it hurts to know it was only everything, to me.



-Kathy C.

Not Good Enough

Don't look at me, I'm ugly.
Don't smile at me, it only hurts more.

I can't stop thinking lately about how I'm just not good enough.
Not good enough to even look at you, sit beside you, say a word to you.
And it only gets worse. Never Better.
Everyone just moves farther.
While I fake up this smile and pretend to be okay with it.

I would give you my heart, but he broke it.
The pieces are shattered, I can't find them.
The remains will never be whole...
So they're just not Good Enough.



-Kathy C.

Maimed Heart

Nudge me from this nightmare.
Help me grasp the feelings again.
Shatter the bleeding thoughts.
Take, away my maimed heart.

-Kathy C.